to whom it may concerned...

A special dedication to every  one that walks into my life for the past 50 years...

especially to my dearest Bae.

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Biase ker ???

Had my 1st school meeting...for the new session
and it's not yet 2010!
Biase laa kan...cikgu!
Started at 8.30am sharp...
could only leave school around 2.30 pm...
Biase laa tu kan...cikgu!


It's gonna be a long ...monotonous week...filled with meetings.
Everyday... starting today till Thursday.
and...the weeks after...
Biase ker ???


All i could say is...
2010 is gonna be another tough and challenging year !

...but my love has no end

There's always an ending...to every starts...

In ten days time...it will be;

...the end of my ever relaxed school break

...the end of my longest evening nap...Yes! i do this for the past one month...

...the end of a none stop feasting...with my gals and boys or some brides and grooms...

...the end of a morning stroll...will be too busy even on weekends...

...the end of 'eat air' session...makan angin lah... kalau tidak makan ape ek?

...the end of spending hours in front of the laptop...huhu!

...the end of 2009!

and i am keeping my fingers cross...(with lots of Doa @prayers)...
to a good new start.

May Allah lend me another propitious year ...
With lots of love that fills my day...

InsyaAllah.

With your love...i carry on...

Buat semua muslimin Muslimat...sahabat handai jauh dan dekat...

Semoga 1431 ini menjanjikan kehidupan yang lebih bermakna ...

Penuh dengan kasih sayang...

dan di Redhai Allah.Amin

Remember,

Life is not measured by the number of breath that you take, but rather, by the moments that take your breath away...

and of all those moments i learnt that...

when  you love some one...

with all your heart and soul...

It's so hard to let go...

when you love some one...

you do anything...

you do all crazy thing that you cant explain...

you' shoot the Moon'...

you 'put out the Sun'...

you deny the truth...

believe...

there'll be time that you'll believe...

when you love some one.

Cinta pada insan ...masa di dunia...terpisah jua akhirnya...

Cintak pada Allah... kekal Abadi.

Thank you Allah.
Thank you all; my love, my family, my friends...
See you in 1431.

SALAM AWAL MUHARRAM.

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A speacial dedication...

Specially dedicated to Anakanda Nazmi...

 

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must , but don't you quit. 

Life is queer with it's twists and turns

As everyone of us sometimes learns,

and many a failure turns about.

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though the past seem slow -

You may succeed with another blow,

Success is failure turned inside out -

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far

so stick to the fight when you are hardest hit -

It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

When you feel all alone in this world...
And there's nobody to count your tears...
Just remember, no matter where you are...
Allah knows!

 

I ask Allah...What if Allah...

7 more days to New year, 1431Hijrah...
urges me to share an articles mailed by one of my friends...
some years ago.

RISALAH JPIS
I asked ALLAH....

I asked ALLAH to take away my pride.
ALLAH said “No”. It is not for me to take away, but for you to
give it up.

I asked ALLAH to make my handicapped child whole.
ALLAH said “No”. Her spirit was whole, her body was only
temporary.

I asked ALLAH to grant me patience.
ALLAH said “No”. Patience is a product of tribulations; it isn’t
granted, it is earned.

I asked ALLAH to give me happiness.
ALLAH said “No”. I give you blessings, happiness is up to you.

I asked ALLAH to spare me pain.
ALLAH said “No”. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked ALLAH to make my spirit grow.
ALLAH said “No”. You must grow on your own, but I will prune
you to make you fruitful.

I asked ALLAH for all things that I might enjoy life.
ALLAH said “No”. I will give you life so that you may enjoy things.

I asked ALLAH to help me LOVE others,
as much as HE loves me.
ALLAH said......Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!

What if ALLAH.........

What if ALLAH couldn’t take the time to bless us today
because we couldn’t take the time to thank HIM yesterday?

What if ALLAH decided to stop leading us tomorrow
because we didn’t follow HIM today?

What if we never saw another flower bloom
because we grumbled when ALLAH sent the rain?

What if ALLAH didn’t walk with us today
because we failed to recognize it as HIS day?

What if ALLAH took away HIS message
because we failed to listen to his messenger?

What if ALLAH stopped loving and caring for us
because we failed to love and care for others?

What if ALLAH would not hear us today
because we would not listen to HIM yesterday?

What if ALLAH answered our prayers the way
we answer HIS call to services
What if ALLAH met our needs
the way we give HIM our lives?

LET US STRIVE ON ...TO BE A FAITHFUL MUSLIM...insyaALLAH.

gain some...lose a little...

Two weeks of school break have long gone...reaching up for the third...
mostly occupied with 'kerja kahwin'...with nasi minyak nasi tomato ,chicken or beef, curry or kurma for almost every week ends...
worst by regular but never a routine (skipped two out of three during school hours) the three in a row meals...
makantidoq...makantidoq
has set me a date with my ever rusting mountain bike again...
in fear of those spare tyres that begin to reappear...huhuhu
Hey!That's my legs paddling ok!
just to prove to you that i never lie...hahaha

that's my other half...way up in front ...
and the route we used for the 'fat burning session'

stopped by the road side to capture this one's in a life time scenery...
well...not really!
but not everyday that i could enjoy watching such...
sky high family gathering huh???

dared not get too close though...
Hey! you never know!
too bad i didn't get to hold of my V.cam ...only on mobile

life seems so simple for them...
neh!

passed by a palm plantationthen...
along this lazy flowing Kerian River...
oops!
now you all know where i live huh?
once famous for it's Crocco @ Sang Bedal's breeding ground and udang galah

we used to do brisk walking... but didn't want to push it too hard...
just wanna have fun with a little bit of exercise...

shouldn't it be the other way round fellows???
Never mind!

Why red?...not green?....

photo of daughter of a friend @ a neighbour taken today...Sunday

Yes!
I am referring to something that has to do with the photo above...a wedding and wedding card.Why red in the first place? We often heard people refer a wedding invitation as 'kad merah'...whereby... in real life...especially nowadays...we seldom see wedding card in red.
i guess red is and has always been the color for the Chinese ( correct me if i am wrong UncleLee).
and green is better known for the Malays...@Muslims...so why not Green card? Hahaha!
and i have heard people used the 'term'...'kad merah' ever since i could understand what it stands for...
Speaking of weddings...that reminds me of weddings during my childhood...
I.
back in kampung...in N9
one unique tradition that is still fresh in my mind is the beverages served ...the none-sugar Tea-O...perhaps this is only found in N9...hahaha!
those time i thought it was common to everybody...only to find it later became a a joke of all years to others! hahaha
So i ask my Atuk (Arwah)...why?...
it makes sense...
As you people know that in those years ...water pipes were not widely used ...so their main source of fresh water is the well...
Almost every houses have two types of well...one is for the drinking...and the other is for bathing and washing ...etc... purposes...
The one for drinking has always been a deeper well...a natural source of mineral water! Honest!
It is so deep down under that the water taste different .
So back to our main topic...
As the water came from the well...they are so used to making sure that it is boiled before consuming it daily...including during celebrations like the wedding.
but the problem is...boiled water is tasteless!
So tea is a natural flavor...just like Chinese tea ...you take without sugar!
As far as hygiene is concerned...i prefer none sugared tea to unboiled syrup !
Whatever!
About the delicacies...
i love the day before the big day...
i remember the 'pulut himpit' (cooked glutinous rice pressed in a special equipment) with sekaya or serikaya...kuih lapis...served during 'duduak urhang' @ duduk orang in Minangkabau. hahaha
Oh ...how the whole kampung and the neibouring kampung folks were invited...Meriah tu!
and i remember how they used to come with a 'boka'@bekal...during' duduk ughang' i.s
a special canister made of silver or other metallike aluminium...called 'mangkuk tingkat' filled with rice...
then it is then filled back with the dishes during the wedding...rendang or the main rendang or rendang nangka!
Best kan...
i miss the rendang nangka...huhu...
Those days...when everything was done by gotong royong...and most of the necessities can be obtained just around the kampung for free!
yet everybody was happy!

II.
When i was in my early teenager...a Malacca 's wedding is so common to me as my step father is from Malacca...and the rest of his family were all typical Melake ! Ulau belengkau tepi pagau!
Melake's wedding was famous for it's Joget Lambak and menconteng arang festival!
Joget lambak is held during the nite of the wedding...where the whole kampung gathered around...and were having fun!
Accompanied by a life band...
beside some Joget numbers...Santana's song was never missed!.."Black magic woman"...
the bride and groom will start the nite with a joget!
followed by the makcik and the pak cik...pak' besau' and mak' besau' victimized by their young family members...
A scene of a 60 year old granny dancing a joget is acceptable during those days...
and they were sporting giler...i tell you!
Enjoy habis!
That was also a nite where the eligible bachelors had their eyes wide opened...looking for a candidate!

Then came the next day... 'conteng arang day'!
watch out ..bride and groom...or you both will end up with faces smeared with crust from the pots and cauldrons during the cleaning...hmmm
Sounds fun huh?

I presume a lot of us would say it is not islamic...tak ikut syariah...but i guess there's a lot of weddings nowadays ...which are way out of Islamic....non Islamic way of life seems habitual...
So... are we so developed and civilized now or...we are back to being Jahiliah???
Wallahhu a'lam...

I guess ...like it or not...we have to return to the syarak and syariah... as to understand why and what is the main purpose of a wedding...
So that everything we practice is blessed by Allah. Amin

"Yang baik jadikan teladan...yang buruk jadikan sempadan"
Mohon diampunkan dosa kaum kerabat kita yang lalu jika pernah mereka tersasar...

ending of a long journey...

towards

Through the valleys and hills that i have gone
i pray to you Allah
that tomorrow
the path i choose
will be smoother
and
of no loop holes

visitors in my garden...

Among all...if not many 'visitors'...not 'intruders'
...that drop by quite frequently in my garden...

One thing for sure...
they are...
astonishing to look at... somehow bringing joy and relief to one's heart...
realizing how nature could actually be sort of a therapy...to those who worship Allah 's creations.


Thank you Allah.

How their daily visits ...
are most welcome!

Flowers of my garden...

Anakanda dambaan hati...
kepadamu ku korbankan jiwa dan raga...

Ya Allah...Lindungilah mereka...
dari kealpaan dan kemungkaran...
Hindari mereka dari
fitnah...dengki dan irihati
Permudahkanlah laluan mereka...

Hanya kepadaMu hambamu ini berserah

Salam Eid Al-Adha...

Buat Seluruh umat islam...seantero dunia

aaghhh !!! ....kau hentam saja lah Labuuu!

Final year exam
Science Paper II

Q: What is meant by Digestion?

A: ...to process food and straight to anus...

@#$%** teacher do not know ...to laugh or to cry...?!@#$%&*
hentam saje lah Labu !!!

Memoir of SPM...

SPM

So much did i think of those who are now...struggling and striving on their luck...i recall way back in 1977
Yes...that was the year when i sit for my SPM...
It was not a pleasant memoir to recall though...
It wasn't my best year...but this is the year... greatest affected my entire life...or shall i say put me into my recent career!
Having a very bad health on that year...i suffered severe coughing that put me in a difficult and unfit situation ...yet i was facing my SPM.
I didn't do much to my problem...only with common cough syrup...that did not seem much help...
I remember telling it to my basketball coach as i was the college player at that time...
I complaint that i often get tired easily during practiced...not knowing that the cough was the cause to my tiredness and gasping my way out for air...after minutes of playing...
My parents didnt know it...as they were so preoccupied with their own problems...
I still recall how i continuously was coughing during my English paper II...that i almost could not continue writing ...could not really concentrate on the paper...several times i felt so blank...and stuck ...i almost cried!
Felt so ashamed too..as i was making so much noise...
Only Allah knows how i felt at that moment...
I was in that situation..up until SPM was over...
In fact it gotten worst.

Apart from being so sick...I was actually succumbing with another ' huge stone' over my head...
and it happened long before SPM!
Its my parents...civil war was about to blast off...
i remember sneaking out of school...or rather college as we all recognized it...just to see my mum...eagerly wanting to know if she was okay...
and how i cried so much every time i met her...
i guess that was the saddest moment of my whole life episodes...
then... before i could finish my exam...i received a register letter...
Guess what!
It was from my mum...telling that she had already moved to my grandfather's house...in kampung.
What more could i hope...for a girl as timid as i am...hopeless and confused...
yet i had to finish up my exam...no matter how broken- hearted i was...
At one week at end of my SPM...i took a bus to meet my mum and the rest of my siblings at Atuk's house...only to find a much more painful sight...
i rather not tell ...as it only makes me regret every bit of my ever born in this cruel life...
Well that was what i felt at that time...
i returned to college to continue my exam...finished it somehow.
The following year was not as pleasant either...for me ..and for my mum...
My parents were divorced...
and i had to undergo treatment and hospitalized!

When the result came out...Syukur i made it. i passed all subjects...but i was not so pleased with the result.
It was okay but not good enough for me to pursue my ambition...
i felt...I could have made better.
At first the frustating feeling was devastating and tormenting...
All my hope was torn ... ripped off and shattered to pieces...
Being an MRSM's student...
I felt that i was a true failure...
I was excellent in my SRP...and was doing ok in the coming year...
but SPM...
Knowing that most of my friends made it...
Miserable...
Felt so down and depressed...i shutt almost every doors to all my friend's calls...for quite a long time...
but somehow... had to make my own move...and so i did
I was not the type of an outgoing girl actually...for i was in boarding school...
but somehow...
Life taught me to stand on my own two feet...
I was on my own...
walked up and down from stairs to another...gambling my faith...and luck...
I was offered a course in ITM(d' only Tertiary Institution available besides UM at that time)...but had to turn it down...coz i can't afford to go...

So my other choice was The teaching course...in JB...Which didn't cost me much.
I accepted it ...and so that's it...
This is the livelihood that was set By Allah for me...
I accept it with greatest Syukur!

Allah knows...

Dtujukan khas buat Sir JUK and family...


Banjir datang lagi...
Buat warga yang berduka...
Kelantan,Terengganu Kedah dan Perak...dimana jua

Biar diri ini tidak pernah menempuh saat saat sukar dan getir seperti yang kalian alaminya...
tidak bermakna tidak terasa segenap kepayahan yang kalian tempuhi...
Tersekat pergerakan...terbatas pandangan...
Malah setiap saat dihimpit rasa gusar...
bahaya mengintai disetiap penjuru ruang dan masa...
Sedar
Betapa pandangan mata ini melihat kepayahan...masakan sama pada bahu yang memikul beban...
Disini disisipkan harapan...dan doa...
agar sahabat serta keluarga... semuanya... Bersabar dan Redha serta Tawakkal dengan dugaan Allah...
Agar segalanya segera berlalu...
Agar semuanya selamat di bawah lindungan Allah yang Maha Mengetahui segala yang di jadikanNya...
Mohon di hindari dari segala malapetaka ... dan kedukaan
Semoga kita semua bertambah takwa...
Amin.

Jaga diri anak - anak ...

Jumaat, 20 November 2009

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A few hours before Schooll cloze up...
Cikgu Hazeleyed masih bz ...
Ada sikit lagi 'unfinished bussiness here and there'...mana tak nye...
Kitani guru kelas lah awak...2nd last class plak tu ! ...hmm
Believe it or not...only today Si Etayahraj inteded to pay his school fee!
Dont wanna say much...but that's the kind of student that we form teachers often have to deal with...
Perhaps being restricted from getting his next year's books made him persuaded his father to pay?
Uphold the Law!
Pergh!
macam Robocorp laa plak!

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Dalam sibuk sibuk cikgu Hazeleyed nak siapkan segala hal...
Anakanda - anakanda dari kelas kita jemput kita gi jamuan kelas kita awak....
Terimakasih anak anak semua...pandai korang organize jamuan kelas...bukan ada duit kelas pun...
dia orang pakat bawa serba sedikit makanan...cikgu sumbang ongkos ...Jadi!
as long as you all are happy...
Apalagi...untuk tak hampakan hati anak semua...cikgu makan apa yang disediakan...TQ
Sempat gak snap photo a few of them...yang tak malu...
yang lain malu-malu...tak da lah gambar kamu!
Azila...Shamila...M.Azreen...Afiq Adha...Haszrina...Nur Nabihah...
Jangan lupa ek!
Cikgu nak kelas ni ' Sparkling clean'... after this !
..." baik cikgu! "...

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Syukur! Cikgu Hazeleyed managed to complete all my tasks...in 2009.
Mission accomplished.

SELAMAT BERCUTI ANAK-ANAK DIDIKKU...CIKGU CIKGI

See yer next year!

Perjuangan yang belum selesai...

Esok bermulanya perjuangan... buat anak-anak didik ku yang menganbil SPM
Cekal dan tawakkal!
Allah sentiasa bersama kamu...
Semoga kalian tenang dalam menempuh ujian ini...
Segala petua... panduan dan bimbingan berbekal sudah...
Seluruh perit jerih...sejuta usaha juga tenaga tercurah...yang pasti bakal di luah dan diolah... menjadi realiti...
Tabahlah!
Tenanglah!
Berdoalah!

Cikgu disini mendoakan kejayaan anak-anak semua.

Phooh ! Women are cleverer than men ???

Ass-salam everybody...
Kak Hazeleyed is bzzzzzz teramat bzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Almaklum penghujung persekolahan ni...
So here's a story that i would like to share...
of which i received from brother Norman...TQ bro.

A smart wife II

There was a man who had worked all of his life, had saved all of his money, and was a real miser when it came to his money.

Just before he died, he said to his wife, 'When I die, I want you to take all my money and put it in the casket with me. I want to take my money to the +after-life+ with me.'

And so he got his wife to promise him with all of her heart that when he died, she would put all of the money in the casket with him.

Well, he died . .. .

He was stretched out in the casket, his wife was sitting there in black, and her friend was sitting next to her. When they finished the ceremony, just before the undertakers got ready to close the casket, the wife said, 'Wait, just a minute!'

She had a box with her, she came over with the box and put it in the casket.

Then the undertakers locked the casket down, and they rolled it away.

Her friend said, 'I know you weren't fool enough to put all that money in there in the casket with your husband.'

The loyal wife replied 'Listen, I can't go back on my word. I promised him that I was going to put that money in that casket with him.'

'You mean to tell me you put that money in the casket with him !!! ?'

'I sure did' said the wife. 'I got it all together, put it into my account and wrote him a cheque. If he can cash it, he can spend it.'

Moral of the story: *Women are cleverer than Men* .......

You men out there...what do you all think???
Soo clever???

Can i borrow $25 ?

You may have read this...

something i received in my mail box...

keep on reading till the end okay.

Can I Borrow $25?
A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities. '

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

Show time...

Show time!

The students were excited...the teachers were tired...

RIMUP...an annual curricular activity was conducted today...4th Nov 09...apart from loads of unfinished tasks that we, teachers are struggling to cope with...not to mention the up coming Exams!

here are some of the scenes that Hazeleyed managed to capture ...using my hand phone only!

Our singing Haji Nasir. He sure brought havoc to the crowd! Bravo!

a dance from Tamil society...

Hmm ...they did it huh...even though the practices took place within two days!

contestants of The Traditional Costumes...

Hey...the Indians seemed more enthusiastic to participate...

Boy! they do have lots of traditional cloths

Oh no! forget about the boot! Hahaha

These too?? i guess they have to put on somethnig after the show...right?

do not expect them to run around bare footed...

One of not so many Chinese students in the school!

Hey! What happened to the legs??? Got burned uh?

hahaha

(subjected to cencorship...)

ngee...

Quite A performance! Clap! Clap! Clap!

Oop! what happens to the majority race of the school...the Malays ???

Haram???

By the way...i guess credits should be given to the students as they managed to make the day possible ...out of a very short notice...

What's next???

Exams girls and boys!

Burung ape???

Hazeleyed is busy...busy..busy

Somehow...managed to catch an unexpected guest in my garden yard...using my handphone

a very small...beutiful ...black with a slight blue and red color at it's back...

Someone please tell me...

Burung ape???