Memories...of the smiles we left behind

Watch the movie when i was in secondary...MRSM Seremban.
Love the plot...Robert Redford...beautiful & magnificent voice of Barbara Streisand.
I remember hanging a huge poster of the handsome Robert Redford on the wall above my hostel bed...
Really love the song...

MRSM...oh MRSM

Memories...
Lights the corner of my mind
Misty water colored memories...
of the way we were
Scattered pictures...
of the smiles we left behind...
Smile we gave to one another...
of the way we were
Can it be it was so simple then...
Every times  re-written every lines
If we have the chance to do it all again...
Tell me would we...
Could we...
Memories
May be beautiful and yet...
Was too painful to remember...
We simply choose to forget...
So is the laughter...
We will remember...
Whenever we remember...
The way we were...............

...wrap it up...with lots of love

Soon...
There comes another year...2011
meaning...
my long and most valued holidays are soon to end...
wanna record some of my 'closing' and meaningful activity for 2010 ....................
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Balik kampung !
Well...
( most people would show their trip to London eyh?)
a lot that i learned...
many things i have experienced...and gone through...
smelled flowers...
aarghhh...
smoke gets into my eyes!

never should i forget this building...and the story it symbolizes...

  ...on my way back to Perak...
stopped by...

just to let Naufal know his 'roots' ( half of it )

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and looking at this picture of Syabilla and Faiqa...makes me realize ..how time fliesphoto taken at the same place...but at different time...(oops! tertukar kedudukan ...)

appreciate the craftsmanship

i wish i have a house crafted like this....

and 

love the stairs too!

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and most of all...

got presents from my beloved sister...Ayu

oleh- oleh dari trip nya ke Vietnam

...etc

Thank you Ayu...

She just made my mum happy in Bangkok.

Balik Bangkok nanti...hulur lagi ya!(:

Happy Birthday to my beloved brother Abdul Hisham (30th December)

Happy Birthday to my beloved Syabilla (31st December)

Happy New Year everybody.

...a beginning to an ending...???

     Attended my 1st meeting ( season 2011) this morning...which ended up at almost 1 .00 afternoon.
* given the same old post...
*The same old story...
but with a brand new Head of School (Principal)...with the same old approach!... or rather... more 'elaborations!'.....huuuuuuuuuuu
*Worst...it's gonna be the whole 5 days in a stretch....of meetings as early as 8.30 am!
...and it's not even a New Year!
God! We teachers really need that long holidays...at the end of the year!

...penthouse ???

...a cool and cloudy morning...

after last night's none stop down pour 

but it's the best weather to do some light warming up on my bike...

and so i did

...enjoyed the scene of which i could not  see it often...

or anywhere

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long armed monkey family...

Lutong

penthouse!

...the chosen one...

Ali ibn Abi Talib, 'A bad deed that offends you is better in the sight of God than a good action that puffs you up with pride.' 

...abettor...am i ???

Sad to see that lots of family still lavishly spend money to a wedding...
Worst ...
...the wedding which is initially meant to only announce the marriage...is filled with events not according to SyaraQ
Worst still...
As a neighbour...i am forced to abet...some of the events!

Forgive me Allah. Have mercy on me.

...Ahoi Women!

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

...and because i am a woman.

... kena gigit semut jer...

naufal: nanti doktor inject sakit buuuu!!!
ibu    : tak de lah...sapa kate? ...mcam kena gigit semut jer ...
naufal: kawan naufal cakap...
ibu    : tak der lah...
naufal: kawan naufal kate sakit ...bila ubat kebas dah hilang...

those are parts of the conversations made by my dear Naufal...before his circumcision been done yesterday..4th december 2010.
Boy... a day he is sure to remember...or rather should remember!
A day to manhood...as they called it...is it really???
i know..i know
it's a bit late for him to be ...
but i should be thankful and grateful anyway coz finally he agreed to have it done!
it was yearafter year that i actually proposed that he'd go for it...
but every time the holidays season comes...it ended naufal saying, "tahun depanlah ya bu"
Hmm...my baby Naufal!

Yesterday, 4th December 2010
at the clinic...
we reached the clinic at around 8.00 am...even the doctor were not yet around..
but that's actually my intension...to be the first...so he wont have to listen to any cries or moans from other boys!
nurse  : Muhammad Naufal !
Naufal: Huuuu!...(puting his arms on his chest...and looking a bit nervous and trembling)...hahaahaa
Ibu     : That's okay, just go...baca selawat ok...
Then the waiting began...ibu pulak yang lebih risau!
(baca Doa tuhan saja yang tahu...tak henti2...)

half an hour later...
walked out of the door...half smiling...(i should have taken a photo of the moment... (: )
naufal : tak sakit lansung!( with him holding his pulikat...walking slowly ...)
ibu     : Alhamdulillah...kan ibu dah cakap...tak sakit...
So you guys... guess what happen after?
just enjoy the photos...

 ...for dressing

 ...guess what i use to keep the Pulikat getting adhered to the 'subject'  ?

My problem now is to get Naufal into 'confinement'. period...

...i am a Minang !

This is a song sang by a blind but very talented  Indonesian...a Minangkabau ( i guess)
He sang with his ' guitar kapak'...making it sounds as though he is singing with a band!

I remember how abah used to play his 'record player'...which i guess was the only device one could use to listen to recorded songs. Cd's and Computers were way out of the story ...
Zulkarnaen was among all that let me understand some of the Minang's version ...though i had troubles understanding at the very first time i heard...
but having to listen to it over a thousand times...i became a real Minang!
Not to mention some other Minang songs sang by Elly kassim and Tiaramon!

Lorong Raja Uda will always be on my mind...
A place where i had the chance to'live' with abah, along and angah...even though it was only for a week during school holidays...
Abah will fetch me from atuk's house...to stay for a day or two in abah's house...in KL
A memorable place where i used to walk together with my other sister Aloi ( stepsister actually ) to GH to meet up with my step mother ( arwah ) whom was working there as Ayamah...
She's a lady with a smile...seemed like she knows everybody in the hospital !
I guess ...during those days...walking for several miles was never a problem...
and...
We never get back empty handed...
There's always something that we need to bring home.

Going to Chow Kit daily market was one common routine that i did during my stay...
Me and my stepmother will walk along TPCA ,Jalan Raja Uda then to Chow Kit to get some groceries and did her marketing

Everything now...is only a memory.

...new in d'family...

3 days old Gobi juniors

Molly @ Ira's cat

Mamma

Mamma

Bambert @ blue eyed 'Gobi'
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28 November 2010
Gobi juniors are 
1 month old !

...one step beyond...

22nd November 2010

Muhammad Afiq...my elder son whom i call 'abang'...graduated in his TESL today.
Thank you Allah..
It took too much of everything...
Tears and laughter...
Only to witness my dearest 'abang' on this particular day and the fairly... well decorated stage...
With it's own unique situation...
 filled with blended feelings and emotions of every parents and everyone that witness their sons and daughters...perhaps sisters and brothers...wife or husbands???
@ loved ones!
Thank you Allah.
I am grateful...my duah is granted!

To my dear 'abang'...
Remember son...
This is not the end of a struggle...
but...

 Only a beginning of a long ...long journey to Life and Success!

...the least i could do...

10 ZulHijjah
Forever praying that you'll grant my duahs ...Allah
Done marketing...meet,chicken,fresh and dried fish,prawns,veggies,lots of fruits, crackers...
and my twin-door fridge is full loaded with all these stuff...
If only the fridge could speaks !!!
Oopps...did i miss anything ???
but sorry dear children...
ibu didn't bake any cookies this Eid Adha...
Honestly...am not so excited this time...coz ibu wiill not be cooking for all of you as Ira Shasha and Faiqa will be celebrating Eid Adha in KL...away from ibu...
Working and SPM let my children could not have my rendandang on this 1431 Eid Adha.
That's your biggest 'sacrifice' on on this month of sacrifice...
Please don't be sad and miserable dear...
i will always love you..and pray that you'll be well and happy ...even if you are all far away from us on this very special day...

Ibu too is still working today...
and will only start cooking for tomorrow...this evening after work...

but most of all...
Ibu is fasting today...

...the least i could do...

Salam Eid ul Adha everyone.

Don't make my brown eyes... blue

...is it our turn ???

Friday 12November 2010

Its Friday...
Its a wet wet day...
It has been like so...since last nite...
and now...no sign of the sun is going to emit any bright light...
Should  i grumble ???
or complaint ???
ungrateful...is the better word ???
for i  have been comfortable enough yesterday...weeks before...perhaps months !

Forgive me Allah!
i know i have not been honest with my feelings at times...
i know rain is a' Rahmat ' ...always be...
i know there were others who suffered and in grief...worst than i could ever experienced in Kedah, Perlis, Kelantan...
no doubt...are still suffering ...in grief of their lost...belongings and beloved ones...
Am i being oblivious...disregard...ignorant ???

On this day of Rahmah and full of Bliss...
Forgive me Allah
Have mercy on me...Amin

do not be like me ...

Somewhere in 1986...i am scheduled to a minor operation...

but it was cancelled...due to a wedding ceremony that was planned earlier...

as my husband was very much needed for this major family event.

Being a  daughter in law...i could not say much...but consented to my mother in law's request not to go for it...and i obeyed without much questions...
not until recently...

i dont have any problems with my health ...nothing like anything that need me to be warded.

Well...none... except to deliver my babies...hahahha!

Didnt know that an abnormality noticed by one of my aunties in 1983...which has never given me any problems before that i ignored it...as it has never given me any problems except for a slight swelling on the neckline...which can be covered by a tudung...is now causing me to go through a major turning point in my life!

Being worried about my voice that gotten sore easily...i seek for help...
and so it all started...

and now...after two major surgery for the past 4 months...i have to face another treatment...

but...i accept it all that is foreordained for me...
Allah knows best.

So... this is the kind of treatment... awaiting for me this Monday...

Wish me luck everyone!

THYROID CANCER Radioactive Iodine Preparation and Precautions

Since radioactive iodine (RAI) targets thyroid cells only, it is a safe and effective way to treat Graves disease and thyroid cancer and to test thyroid function and monitor recurrence of thyroid cancer. However, it requires strict compliance with instructions in order to insure its accuracy and efficacy. In order to have the best test/treatment possible, there are preparatory measures you must take in order to maximize the uptake of the radioactive iodine by remaining normal thyroid tissue or metastatic thyroid cancer. In addition, since the radioactive substance can effect others around you with normal thyroid tissue, you will be instructed to take certain precautions to protect those around you. Below are important general instructions and information on what to expect. Your doctor will discuss your individual needs at the time of your consultation.

Before RAI Scanning or Treatment

When you receive a scan, an RAI pill is given in order to see if any thyroid tissue remains in your body. If you are receiving treatment, more RAI is given after the scan in order to destroy any remaining thyroid cells that may be cancerous. Depending on the amount needed to destroy the cells, you may need to be hospitalized for your treatment. All patients receiving 30mci or more of RAI must be admitted to the hospital.

Precautions

Before receiving RAI, tell your doctor if you are pregnant or breast feeding. If your doctor orders a pregnancy test before your treatment or scan, do not have sexual intercourse until after the treatment/scan. Tell your doctor if you have received any x-rays using iodine contrast within the last 6 weeks.

Preparation

STEP 1: 6 weeks before scan/treatment: Discontinue Synthroid and begin Cytomel

 6 weeks prior to the RAI scan or treatment, you will be instructed to stop taking your thyroid hormone medication . In this way, your body is made to be hypothyroid with a deficiency of thyroid hormone. Once hypothyroid, the brain produces more of its thyroid stimulating hormone in an attempt to increase thyroid hormone levels in the bloodstream. This increase in thyroid stimulating hormone causes the most efficient concentrating of iodine by thyroid tissue because it needs the iodine to make more thyroid hormone.

In an effort to decrease the amount of time that you must be hypothyroid, a short-acting form of thyroid hormone called T3 (the most common brand name is called Cytomel) is given after you stop taking your regular, long-acting form of the medication (T4). The T4 or levothryoxine is stopped 6 weeks prior to the scan so that it may be eliminated from the bloodstream. At that time, T3 is started and is continued until 2 weeks prior to the scan.

STEP 2: 2 weeks before scan/treatment: Discontinue Cytomel.

 It takes two weeks for the short-acting form of thyroid hormone to be eliminated from your bloodstream. Thus, you will be most hypothyroid for two weeks prior to your scan/treatment. During these two weeks, you should not take any thyroid hormone until after the treatment.

Unfortunately, becoming hypothyroid produces unpleasant symptoms: fatigue, difficulty concentrating, weight gain, and sometimes depression. The elderly are often most bothered by these symptoms which can be quite disabling.

Thyrogen: A New Drug to Avoid Hypothyroid Symptoms

Recently a drug called Thyrogen was approved which eliminates the need for a patient to become hypothyroid before a total body scan. Thyrogen is a pharmaceutical version of thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH), which can be given to you prior to radioiodine scanning and artificially elevates the level of thyroid stimulating hormone in the bloodstream. Therefore you do not need to stop taking your thyroid hormone medication in order to achieve this effect prior to scanning. Although the burden on the patient is relieved, this method of preparing for the radioiodine scanning does not appear to be quite as effective as the old fashioned way that we described above. In other words, the synthetic TSH may miss some people who have metastatic thyroid cancer that could be detected using the standard way to prepare for this test, but this issue is not settled. This drug is no widely used at this time, mainly because it is expensive and not more effective than traditional methods.

STEP 3: 1 week before scan/treatment: Begin low iodine diet, and continue until treatment is completed.

 Preparing for the total body scan also requires that you avoid iodine in your diet at least one week prior to the test. If you consume a high iodine diet prior to this test, the radioactive iodine is not taken up as efficiently by the thyroid because it has already absorbed the iodine it needs from what was present in your food. The two most common sources of high iodine include vitamins, which contain iodine, and seafood. Always check medication labels thoroughly to avoid taking iodine that may be included in standard multivitamin preparations. Since salt has been fortified with iodine in the United States, salty foods should also be eliminated. Always check the label to see if a particular food contains large amounts of salt or iodine.

Iodine-Containing Foods to Avoid Before an RAI Scan

 *Vitamins containing iodine — Check the label on the bottle.

1. Iodized salt: Not all salt contains iodine — check the label on the salt container. Only use NON-iodized salt until after your treatment.
2. *All fish and shellfish — These are particularly high in iodine.
3. Milk, ice cream and yogurt — You may have milk in your coffee or on your cereal, but try not to drink more than 1 cup (8 oz) daily.
4. Canned fruits and vegetables — fresh or frozen fruits and vegetables are allowed.
5. Cured or spicy meats (ham, bacon, salami, etc.)
6. White bread — whole wheat, rye or cracked wheat bread is allowed.
7. Salty foods (pizza, chili, Chinese and Japanese food, snacks — pretzels, chips, nuts, etc.)
8. Tea — coffee is allowed
9. Lemonade
10. Foods containing red food dye

STEP 4: 2 days before scan/treatment: Blood tests.

 Two days before an RAI scan or treatment, blood tests are taken to ensure that you are hypothyroid (so that the scan/treatment is as effective as possible). A pregnancy test may also be ordered if there is a possibility that you might be pregnant. A light breakfast, low-iodine is allowed before the tests. If you are having a total body scan or outpatient RAI treatment, the RAI pill is taken after the blood tests. You will be allowed to eat one hour after you take the pills.

The Day of the Scan/Treatment

RAI Scanning

On the day of your scan, around the same time you had the pills, you will have additional blood tests and the total body scan. The procedure will take about 4 to 6 hours. The scan is usually read by the radiologist that evening. You should call your surgeon's office the following morning for results and directions for resuming your thyroid medication.

Outpatient RAI Treatment

Outpatient treatment is similar to the scanning procedure, except that the RAI dose is greater. Before taking the pills, you will be able to discuss the treatment with a physician and will be asked to sign a permission form. You may eat 1 hour after taking the pills. Precautions, including the low iodine diet, start after you receive the pills.

Three days after you have taken the pills, additional blood tests are performed as well as a total body RAI scan. You may have a full breakfast.

Six days after the treatment dose, final blood tests are performed as well as a second total body scan.

Inpatient RAI Treatment

If you are treated with large doses of radioiodine to destroy thyroid cancer metastases, you will need to be hospitalized and placed in isolation for about 3 days after taking this medication in order to minimize the risk of radiation exposure to others. Since the RAI is passed out of the body through all bodily fluids such as stool, urine, saliva and sweat are potential forms of contamination. You must be hospitalized in a special isolation room so that all of your bodily fluids may be disposed of properly. You will be served your meals on paper plates with disposable utensils. Your urine and stool will be collected and disposed of in proper radioactive waste containers. Your bed sheets will be specially laundered. Personal items such as pillows, stuffed animals, or needlepoint should not be brought into the isolation room since these items will become contaminated with radioactivity. Newspapers, magazines and paperback books are allowed because these can be thrown away. In addition, all nurses, doctors and housekeeping personnel who enter your hospital room must wear a special badge to monitor the amount of radiation that they are exposed to. Only brief visits are permitted.

On the third day you will be scanned for residual disease and then discharged, after the hospital's radiation safety officers have determined that the level of radiation is low enough for discharge (using a portable machine which measures radioactivity). You will still have to closely follow the precautions outlined below for approximately one month.

Precautions After RAI Scanning or Treatment

In addition to all the special preparations prior to an RAI scan or treatment, there are also precautions to follow afterwards. Although only a small amount of radioactivity is involved with this scan, it is still important to follow these simple precautions in order to minimize radiation exposure to your family members and friends. Since the radioactivity is excreted through all bodily fluids, mainly urine, as well as feces, sweat and saliva, it is essential to isolate these fluids. After you've had your I131 scan/treatment, you should:

1. Always wash your hands with soap and water after you use the bathroom. Dry your hands thoroughly with a towel that only you are using.
2. Separate all towels, washcloths, and bed linens. Wash all of these items separate from the family wash.
3. In order to dilute the amount of radiation in urine and feces, always flush the toilet at least two or three times after using the bathroom.
4. Wash the bathroom sink, shower, bathtub and bidet after each use.
5. Separate your plates, silverware and drinking cups. Better yet, use paper plates and plastic cutlery, so you won't have to wash your dishes separately from the rest of the family.
6. If you are cooking for the family, remember not to taste any of the food with a spoon that will be used for food preparation. Once it touches the saliva in your mouth it is considered to be contaminated and must be washed separately.
7. Sleep in a separate bed from your partner. Avoid open mouth kissing and all sexual contact.
8. Radiation exposure is directly related to the amount of time you spend with another person as well as how intimate and close your contact is with them. Avoid prolonged intimate physical contact with babies, children and pregnant women. You may perform all essential duties such as changing diapers, if no one else is available to help you. Wash your hands before and after these tasks.
9. In order to flush out the radiation faster, keep yourself well hydrated (preferably with water) so that the radioactive iodine will be passed out of your body through your urine.

These precautions should be followed for three days after the I131 test. After this period of time, the radiation exposure to other people is negligible and you do not need to follow any additional precautions.

Pigs in everything ! What say you ???

let's listen...and recite...

...I will never forgive nor forget anyone of you...who try to betray or abuse me...NEVER!!!

...a date with Taiping hospital...

Plizz...i need some magical touch to spurs back my interest in blogging...

Jahil...or simply ignorant???

Worst than Depa Raya concept a few years back...
One Malaysia doesnt mean that we have to accept all religions  as one...
boleh terpesong Aqidah ni!

Ohh...I miss Allahyarhamah Yasmin! MayAllah Bless her soul.

So many things to be settled...in so little time...sigh! Mummy tolong !!!

jom recite Al-Quran yang best...http://tanzil.info/

Which comes first? Chicken or egg???

It's not a joke, not a sing-song grammar school challenge, not a smarty-pants response from your dad. It's apparently, not even a question anymore. The chicken and egg debate has now come down to real, live science.

Researchers from two universities in England say that they've finally answered which came first. (Quick! Make your final guess!)

And the answer is?

Chicken.

Scientists say the age-old question comes down to one practicality -- the egg cannot be formed without the protein ovocledidin-17. This essential ingredient helps the shell develop and is produced solely inside the chicken. Therefore, if the egg must be produced inside the the chicken, the chicken got the whole thing started.

The researchers note that aside from solving this mystery (which, by the way, they said they long suspected would be a chicken before they actually had the scientific proof), the study could offer insight into shell production. That could lead to new nature-inspired developments in material design and technology.

If that's the case and a technology-or-egg question ensues, at least we'll already have a concrete response.

Were you right? Is this enough info for you or are you still convinced a shell broke before the first chick appeared?
Hmmm...

Farewell Kak idah...

19 July 2010...
Our school has lost one precious teacher...Cik Hajah Hamidah...as today is her last day in school and in the entire teaching profession...may be.
Yes...she is retired ...for good.
A very experinced ..Guru cemerlang, nice and humble person...somebody that you would not turn your back to...
soft spoken and very sisterly...kak Idah
the students love her too
i used to play netball in PSKPP with her...hahaha! Good old days huh kak Idah.
As far as i remember...she was already in the school the time i was transfered here...that was in 1983...Wow!
...i think i wanna be like her...retire in this very school!

and the school gave her a special treat on her retirement day...
starting from a special assembly...

to a grand lunch prepared by her fellow KHB and RJPand Catering friends and students...Boy! arent they good!
Well done kak Idah...you have made them a fantastics students!

Wish you all the good things in comes along your way...Enjoy your life.
May Allah prosper you with good health...
Forget us not...
Farewell kak Idah

Gobi's kinda toy...

     Gobi is a fairly grown up female cat...still a very long way to adulthood...hahaha!...that was presented to Naufal from my MRSM's friend Mr Atan (remember my  N3 about his visit last year ...)

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             Having the fact that Gobi is a female cat...does not at all lessen her ability in hunting...a natural skill that Gobi the natural predator could do...
     Just have a nice look at all the action shown ...you will agree that she don't exactly hunt for his breakfast... (coz i feeds her most of the time )...but rather takes his prey as his playmate...or her toy instead!
No doubt she is good in catching his prey...could catch a low flying butterfly...dragon fly...moths ...lizadrs...cockroaches... name it! and this poor bird is a prove how good she is...and how playful she is!
Done with the juggling...lobbing...hurling...nipping and bitting...
Sorry bird! Gobi's just wanna have fun! 
                                                                   and so ...left the dead body of that poor bird....uneaten!

Demam yang yuk???

Ibu...Naufal pening!
This is one simple sentence i used to hear out of Naufal's mouth early morning...
and straight away i know that he's not in any interest to go to school today...
Felt like forcing him to get up and hit the shower...
but again i knew...that he's gonna just make' donno'!
Eeeee....!
If ibu's wish he simply ignored...what more was abah's!
I know Naufal very well!
What not...he is my son ok...
He will not go to school if he is not feeling well...why cant i understand this???
Dah macam2 ibu takutkan...
"kalau malas...kita potong nama ya...tak payah susah pergi sekolah..."
"kalau banyak main...sampai tak boleh pegi sekolah...lain kali tak boleh main...bla bla bla...pot pet pot pet!
but he slept still...cuddled up in his blanket...buat dek! ...as though i was not talking to him...
Arghhh!
After several attempts...persuaded him to get up...i realized it's not worth it...
Ok. ok ..enough of pot petting...
Let him be...
It's not that i didn't understand...
He was too tired and worn out...because of yesterdays activity...Bola Baling tournament...inter house je!
After all...He seldom skip school...
It's just that....hmmmm
Perhaps ...i was sore of the reason...too much of play!
but then again i accept the fact that Naufal is not a robot...
He is merely a human being...and at times he gets sick...and tired...
And most of all
He is my baby!